I have been rather tired this week.  Although I got 9.5 hours of sleep yesterday, my mood was no better, and my energy levels were horrible.  I am working out, and I know this is not PMS.  So, what is it?  My conclusion:  I want to sew.  I don't want to clean or do laundry.  I don't want to go out with the kids and play.  Nope all I want to do is sew.  It is then, that I shut down, and refuse to be productive because I want to be selfish.  Seriously, sewing is addictive.  I always find when I start a sewing project, I get like this.  I just want to finish it.  Last night in bed, I thought about it.  I have to learn to multitask my sewing.  It should not be a problem because I multitask all day long.  I clean and think about what is for dinner.  I make beds, and put a load of wash in at the same time.  I fold laundry and iron.  So why can't I clean and sew at the same time?  Once, I cut out a pattern, and it is sitting on my table, I find myself drawn to my sewing room all the time.  I leave the dishes in the sink, the vacuum parked in the kitchen, and everything is ignored.  Taking the car to the dealership is dropped, and everything else important, and I mean really important is just ignored.  Bad, addictive behavior, and I have to change it.  I think that is why I go weeks without sewing.  Guilt overcomes me when I sew.  I cannot seriously consider sewing when I know it is time to feed the kids.  Yes I do.  That is when I start biting at my nails, and I know the feeling that is about to take over this body.  Sounds incredibly silly doesn't it?  So, today I am about to make the first change, and although I have pants cut out for Olivia, I will not sew until my dishes are washed, and I have done something fun with the kids.  Let's see if it works.

  

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